Choosing the light...

Choosing the light…

I have been shocked as it has appeared to me to see so many people who are “asleep”, blindly following. In The Chosen, two disciples of Christ are speaking and one says to the other, “He has come to awaken the earth. Some will not awaken, they are in love with the dark.” I feel that is where we are at again. I feel the darkness, I feel that is what is making me so tired. Is it possible that Christ as returned already, but we could not see Him?

Being awaken is uncomfortable, even terrifying at times. Being willing to open my eyes and question everything I was taught to be true has been difficult. I have remained prayerful, turning my heart towards God, and I still lack. I still lack faith that I can be healed and whole. I still lack the willingness to see myself as Jesus sees me. I am in sin because my heart doesn’t stay turned towards Him.

Seeing these patterns is my power. Acknowledging my lack of faith helps it to grow. Failing is where I can choose humility.

Choosing the light and to be awake isn’t a one time big event. It’s the small decisions we make throughout the day. Maybe my heart won’t be fully turned to Him and stay there right now, and I can increase the number of times I choose to turn to Him in faith and ask for His help- with “big” and “small” things. That’s how a friendship grows and there is no better friend I want to have.

Much love,

Jules ❤