Observatory...

Observatory…

Last night I was hungry and ate later and a little more than I needed. As I went to bed I started down the familiar road to shame, then stopped and decided to watch the thoughts rather than grab onto them and make them mean something. As I watched the thoughts and questions I was able to be compassionate with myself as I studied my choices and found where I could do things differently next time. When I was thinking about the candy my son had left out I could have put it in his room and then sat with the feeling of really really wanting to eat sugar. I could have eaten a better dinner rather than Chinese food that I knew would make me hungry later or at least eat something with it that was filling like a protein shake. I could have turned off the TV and sat in meditation to see what was coming up that I wanted to cover with sugar.

I was able to watch and learn without shaming myself. I was the detective rather than the warden. This simple small shift helped me to go to bed with peace. While there is still so much shame in my body about my body, at least I didn’t add to it last night.

Is there something in your life that you can look at in a more gentle way? Can you put on your Sherlock hat rather than your witch hat and gently discover and study the patterns in your life?

Much love,

Jules ❤