Freedom to be me...

Freedom to be me…

I was meditating once and “saw” my soul coming to Earth. I was open, shiny and bright, joyfully excited for the experience, when I hit the Earth’s atmosphere I saw myself close up like a sea anemone when it’s touched. When I hit my family’s energy I closed up more.

For as long as I remember I have felt insignificant, wrong. I feel I am often see as “too silly”. This has been so painful to me, this feeling that who I am is not okay. I’ve been pushing to be myself while not sitting with the pain of rejection of me. Because the “I don’t care what others think about me any more” is on top of the wound, it’s not clear, powerful energy. It’s like putting a band aid on a dirty cut, it won’t heal.

So today I am crying for the little girl who didn’t feel safe to be the open, light hearted, joyful, playful child she was. I choose to find her and bring her into my adulthood. I can be responsible and playful at the same time. I can be open hearted and safe. I can be joyful and see clearly. I can be all sides of me, in fact that’s when I am my most powerful and safe.

How about you? Is there a part of you you have denied or dialed down to be “acceptable”?

Much love,

Jules ❤